My self esteem and safety were shattered at around age 10 and it got worse from there...was a perfectly normal child, but early depression made me look for comfort inside, and guess where I found it? Started putting on pounds right away. I can still hear those words "Your FAT!!!" in my house, but there was nothing else that helped but more food.

When I look at my high school pics and remember that I weighed 144, I have to shake my head...I was beautiful, had no body problems, just a little healthy meat on my bones! But I always FELT fat and I soon fulfilled that awful prophecy.

I lost all my 20's to obesity...260 at the highest. I dropped 90 pounds on my own through sheer disgust, and aside from 25 I put on through a 5 year relationship, that just ended, I have kept most of it off. NOW that I'm grieving, I'm down another 15.

Most people are fat in their heads first...God save us, it's a crime what we put into the heads of children and young girls especially.

Every body's beautiful.