Hi, guys! Sorry about being a "no-show" for awhile. Eleven days ago, I got my heart broken. It hurt so bad, I had to withdraw emotionally from life for awhile. It still hurts, though not as much. I'm finally starting to climb out of the deep, dark pit of depression and overwhelming sadness. I'm also having to face the aftermath of several days of not caring what I ate or how much. I know a lot of people who can't eat when they're depressed. Not me. I try to drown my sorrows with food. And it isn't the allowable foods I want, either. I want the foods that will put me into a fog so that I can't feel anything.

I'm trying to get back on track, but it's very hard to do. A part of me doesn't want to let go of the isolation. I don't want to hurt anymore, and I don't want to keep binging, but I don't know how to break free. I think there's a part of me, deep inside, that doesn't want to let go of the pain, so that I have an excuse to keep binging. It's a vicious cycle, and I hate it!