I had a doctor appointment this morning and he found a large mass in my breast. When I left his office, my first thought was to stop and buy a pack of cigarettes. I quit smoking one year ago on the first Tuesday of December. I didn't get the cigarettes. I went back to my office and confided in my friends there then tried to work while I was mostly feeling afraid and sorry for myself. Now I guess I am confiding in my friends here online while I am feeling afraid and sorry for myself. They can't get the mammogram done until Monday morning and then it will probably be three days after that before I know anything else. It's going to be a long weekend and up until this morning I had really been looking forward to a couple of days off work.