I appreciate all of you that responded to my plea...I apologize for not writing sooner, things got alittle worse before they got better and I was unable to get online for awhile. Thankfully, I am on the upswing once again. I found a new rheumotologist, who, though cannot cure me, is very validating, positive, and knowledgeable. Once I was able to let go alittle of my type A personality traits and stop obsessing so much, I was able to rest, and accept my siutation as it was. Strangely, as I began to slowly feel better I found gratittude in what little I could do, I put the focus on what I was ABLE to do, rather than what I was unable to do.
Presently I am back to the gym, at about 70%, my brain has cleared up, the fog is lifting, and I'm feeling more like myself. I took all the advise, and I am now listening to my body... I rest when I need to, I take breaks, and I don't push myself beyond reason.
Thanks to all of you once again, you are all a blessing to me!!!
Stay healthy happy and peaceful,
Dawn