Thanks Karen - that's really inspiring.
You're right - it's easy for me to beat myself up, compare myself to others, panic and flail, and blame the program, or my genetics, or what have you.
It really does come down to - it's a choice, something I'm doing for myself, and something I'm committed to. Exactly what it looks like may change. And - I know I need to get a little more perspective and distance on it - try something, if it doesn't work, just go back and try something else - instead of deciding that that's it, nothing works, and it's time to give it all up...