Hi! Glad to meet you!! I think losing weight is like stopping drinking. Maybe we have to hit the bottom of the barrell before we are ready to do it. And it sure sounds like you hit it! And that is a good thing. You really sound ready and motivated to get going once again. You have lots of company, most of us have failed miserably many times on many diets, I sure have. But people succeed at this every day and we can join them!! Hang tough! Cindi