It's been a while since you started this thread, but I just found it and am compelled to reply. Not only are you a talented writer, but a very compassionate person. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Success could not have happened to a nicer guy! I too am at work and just shed a tear. Your words are very moving. I can't help but think this process, your "re-birth", just might contibute to your success as a writer. I think we all have to experience pain and discomfort to really appreciate the very basic good in life. Take care.