Hi Venda! You sound so discouraged but you have done marvelously on this WOL! It sounds like you might be dealing with cravings. You might benefit from some supplements or changes in your plan. Sounds to me like your cravings are just running crazy. Are you eating enough? Sometimes if your diet is too low cal you will start craving like crazy. I would do a search here under "craving" and see about making some adjustments. In the meantime, understand that we have all been there! Finding some good advice might help the cravings decrease and help you get back on track! Cindi