My deepest sympathies for the loss of two of your children and my best wishes for the health of the third.

I'm glad you have chosen to give this way-of-eating a chance and, if given a true chance, I'm very confident that you will do very well. Most - not all - of us here are carb addicts to one degree or another. If you can stay the course for a few weeks, your addiction will most likely be broken (as much as any addiction can be broken) and you will be utterly amazed at how easy it will be to walk past the donut box at work - and how great being able to do so will make you feel.

Stick close to this forum and especially consider starting a journal here - it and the friends you will make on this site will be a tremendously valuable asset on your journey.