Congrats - not just on your weight loss, but on being free from purging for this long. I know how hard it is to let go of ED behaviours, especially when they're rooted from the time you were a kid. It sounds like you're really taking care of your body now.

I know it feels wierd. Try to enjoy it, though - maybe treat yourself to some new clothes or something. I deal with it by enjoying my body's strength, likely longevity, and likely avoidance of illness - *not* it's appearance, or how it compares to that of celebrities. You're doing a really good thing for yourself. Your body would thank you.