Hey there, Lessara! I totally identify with your posts and really cannot give you much more information because I feel that EVERY day is one of those days for me! So I need to deal with it as best I can---with a sense of humour and try to laugh at myself when I get too histrionic and tragical.

It also helps for me to remember that most people probably don't notice things as much as I would like to think in my most paranoid thinking. I should remember that I am not the center of anyone else's universe, and people are generally so self-absorbed that they don't notice me.

Or if they do: what's wrong with being a buffoon!

But mostly, I don't want to be loved, I want to be invisible!