hi darrklove, hang on in there. It seems to be working pretty well for a lot of people. I've struggled with the idea that so many calories will make me fatter, but I've decided that I'm going to do it - it is scary being fatter than you want to be and doing something that you think might make you worse, but there's a lot of experience in these forums and they've been through it and found out more calories works. See some of Natrushka's posts about this.
All the best, Jay