well i guess my biggest reason is my appearance inside my head doesn't match the reality.I see myself in the mirror(i avoid them mostly)and am shocked and depressed. I keep saying things like;i used to be a knock-out.I want to be that again. I want to be a clothes horse.I want to enjoy my middle and old years.I want to look sexy again.I want people to stop saying she's fat BUT she's got a nice personality.I want to be taken seriously for who I am. The weight (in skinny people's eyes) diminishes all that I am and all that i hope to be !

Marie