it is possible that 200 is a healthy weight for you. In this case, god may know better than the fashion industry what you should weigh.

If so, how could you find ways to make peace with that?

I'd advise you to keep eating healthily--as close to Protein Power purist or paleolithic or KISS or Schwarzbein as you can--forget calories, carb grams, and the scale, and find other matters to focus on.

HTH!