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Old Sun, Mar-10-02, 10:49
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Plan: Jim's modified CALP
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Default Dealing with the guilt

Well I'm at the end of week two and I've not had any cheats and overall feel really good. My tight jeans are now comfortable and I don't feel as sluggish even though I sometimes feel like taking a nap. I am starting to feel the pangs of "I hate meat". This morning, I didn't want to eat breakfast. But based on what I've read here and in the book, I made myself eat.

But here's where I'm struggling. You see being 40 years old and having been taught "the right way to eat" by so many different sources, I feel guilty for the way I'm eating. Yesterday, I sat down and ate a 3 egg omelette made with cream, and 4 slices of crisp bacon. When I was finished I felt really full. That's when the guilt started. This voice in my head said, "you can't feel full like that and lose weight." At lunch I had 2 links of Italian sausage with peppers and onions and melted Provolone. Again when I was finished I felt fully satiated and GUILTY. For dinner I had a chef salad and was full and stopped eating before it was gone. Still, even eating a salad I felt guilty.

I once lost 140 lbs by eating just one meal a day. And since gaining back that weight and more, I've always resigned myself to the fact that if I wanted to really lose weight, I'd have to go hungry. In this woe, not only do I not go hungry, I even eat when I don't feel like eating.

Well I realize this probably sounds more like a journal entry, but I wonder if any of you have felt this guilt I'm referring to, and if and how you've been able to get past it.

Thanks for all the encouragement,
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