very well articulated, mike. ever think of taking up some sort of writing because that was quite poignant. I don't think I've ever used that word in real life. lol. anyhow, looks like a great life change and I wish all of you here, success. Also, dont measure yourself so harshly on your looks, as its obvious your hearts will always 'outweigh' any other so-called flaw. Seems like a great group of ppl here. Hang in there guys, you can do it.