{I stopped smoking about 6 weeks ago} Give yourself credit. That is no mean task. It takes a LOTTTTTT of discipline and control to do that.

It is hard to lose someone close to you but a parent is just irreplaceable. Anniversaries bring home the permanence of the departure but it gets easier with time.

The main thing and the most important thing is that {here I am again, back on the wagon, full of determination }

That's the spirit.