I can totally relate to your post, Susan!

I work in hospitals - you'd think the food choices would be much better but they're usually the worst in the universe!!! Doctors trying to drum up business maybe?? Just kidding....

I eat when I'm happy. I've got a great husband (well, usually great ) and 3 beautiful kids, a good life, lots of family and friends and I'm generally and upbeat and positive person. I want to eat to reward myself for a hard days' work, to celebrate ANYTHING, to connect with others over food, to complement a fun time.... When I'm depressed or sad I don't want to eat at all but who wants to be depressed and sad????

I was in total denial most of the time and only got a rude awakening when going to try on clothes and when looking at pictures. The person I saw in the mirror/picture in no way related to the image I imagined for myself. Talk about self-delusion....

I'm getting happier with the body I see in the mirror, tho, slowly but surely