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Hi Meg

And thanks for the long post!!! I don't think we need to feel we have to restrict our posts. Sometimes voimeting (there's that little puke man again ) stuff up in journaling can help me from binging and purging...altho I don't purge anymore....I was more into to binge and then starve. And I like having a lot of the stuff here than in my journal as a lot of the folks that visit my journal don't have the same food issues that I do...or issues with the holidays but with you and Hapee I have kindred spirits.

I am glad you are emotionally healing! and that you have what sounds to be a most loving and supportive DH and I love the name for you and the cute little "fat maus" he put on the fridge...I think that shows a lot of caring.

I am 54 and am just beginning to heal emotionally from my food addiction. I have finally found out that it is not about the damn food but about how I am feeling. I do still binge at times but I stick with this forum and find that the binges are shorter in lenght...involve less food...and I go longer between binges. So healing is going on. I am also in counseling and as I deal with the feelings instead of "eating" them I find alot of depression and anger

I began being anorexic at age 12 when I began to develope a woman's body. It never occurred to me that I was fat until my mother began calling me that. Why? I really don't know as I was 5'7" with a large frame and at that time weighed 118 soakin' wet and constipated. I look back at the pics and see this skinny kid and wonder why she said that???? Maybe she was uncomfortable with me developing a woman's body??? But that began my love/hate relationship with food and my self hate as I felt...even as an adult in her early 40's that if I ate more than 1 cup of sugar free yoguert a day and a large salad that I was eating too much...and I was a well respected nurse that would never allow one of her patients to survive on that

But the holidays bring back painful stuff for me and I do overeat. So far 2 days of eating on program.

OK 3 things I am grateful for:

1. DH is doing the housework for me as I am having a bad day pain wise.

2. LC chocolate when I am having a give me a piece of chocolate day or you die day!

3. Two days of my carbs, calories and water at goal.

4. Finding safe folks to share my eating craziness with.
Hugs to both of you and thanks for being here.