Silence,
You are such a beautiful and caring person. It's time to lavish some care on yourself!
Please do all you can do to help yourself. Learn all you can learn. All of the Mentors here will help you. You don't even need to ask. Just start a journal here, and post daily. All here have time for such a beautiful person as you.
With the right counceling, and all the LC'ers support, I have every confidence you'll succeed in releasing the happy, confident person inside.
Looking forward to seeing your beautiful, smiling face soon!
Murp