hi pegm, Aine and Marlaine, thank you for the quick response!
I just wanted to say I'm surprised everytime about the kindness of the people here. it makes me feel welcome.
so thank you.
ok, so here's what I thought I'd do. I have a threadmill a(I'm sure I misspelled it but you'll have to forgive me, I am not a native speaker ) so I decided to get up early in the morning and do 20 minuets of cardio and the resistance training I'll do in the gym after work. I know I cant start tomorrow (had a minor sergary today so I'm still a bit sore) but I'll try .

ok, so thats that.

I also wanted to share a problem I have with my gym, my trainers at the gym give me a hard time about my workout method (BFL) and it's becoming a stragle, some are exited about my unusual moves but some are more traditional. and also I feel like people are staring at me, and it's kind of hard to ignore this.
that's it.

thanks again
may