I know that feeling!! We have had several threads here about fear of being thin. People treat thin people different than fat people.

I'd always been a fat person and now that I'm not people treat me differently. It's weird sometimes how the same person can treat you differently as weight changes.

I think we can unconsciously sabotage ourselves if there is something deep down inside we don't want to deal with. Consciously, I want to be a thin and healthy person but I find once I get to a certain weight I fall off the rails. It's a pattern I have done many times and I am trying to figure it all out so I don't keep doing it. I know this is my pattern but I don't know WHY yet.

Working on it....

Julie