Lauri,

I'm so sorry you're going through such a tough time right now. To be honest, I'm still working on coming up with ways to cope with stress & depression that don't involve food, alcohol or drugs. I do find that a good workout seems to help. I think this helps because it gives me something other than my problems to focus on. I also like putting on some inspirational music on the Walkman. I'm sure in southern California there must be some wonderful hiking spots. You & your DH might want to try & get away for a couple of hours.

Also try to lean on your friends during this difficult time. I nursed my MIL through a 2 year terminal illness and, looking back, I wish I would have taken more people up on their offers of help. I think I was so busy trying to show everyone (including myself) how strong & capable I was.

Most of all, take care of yourself & know you have this forum to always help you keep on track.