I know it's been very hard, Eve, but you shouldn't be suffering. This way of eating should be enjoyable. Maybe you could be more specific about why it seems like suffering to you.

The whole point of it being a "way of eating" instead of a "diet" is that diets are to be endured, like dental surgery, and a "way of eating" brings ease and joy to your life.

Maybe another plan would help. Please let us know.