Unfortunatley going through things and getting a handle on our feelings, issues and problems is not comfortable. It's not an easy process but if you keep doing the same thing that is not working but expecting different results... (ok not original) but it's like banging your head against a wall... you don't realize how it hurts still it stops. I encourage you to try and find someone to help you work out your thoughts as for St. John Wort... I've personally tried it and didn't like it. Again self medicating without working on issues just masks things until you stop and or they come to a head again!