I've always been a people pleaser, but I've noticed that the more overweight I got, the more "pleasing" I tried to be.

I honestly think that part of it was my fear that if I gave the slightest bit of offense, people would ditch me because I was unworthy. I have a habit of assuming that there is no good in me strong enough to make people like me, because who could like Fat Bree. It makes me very paranoid, and I actually annoy people by trying so hard not to annoy them.

There are other factors other than my weight in this, but I think it was a big part of it.

It's also odd, because I don't apply this logic to other people. I assume that I am ugly because I'm overweight, but I don't think other people are. I assume that people will hate me for being overweight, but I don't hate people who are. I guess I've got a pretty unhealthy double standard.

Hmmm... now I have to go think about this.