Ok, to start with - stop punishing yourself! It is not going to help you. You messed up, and I think you paid the obvious price wehn you tossed your cookies. Now, it is time to just start fresh, and realize you are only human and relax. Drink lots of water, and read a bit (since you have all those books LOL...and start taking care of YOU.

You are a wonderful, caring and dedicated person and you can do this!!! Maybe try writing down in your journal about the meal, the sickness and how bad you feel so that if you get the same craving next time you can go back and remember how bad this was for your body...

We are all here for you, and you can do this - one day at a time!..