No, it's not just you, Orchid.

I got fat because I never stopped eating - I binged and grazed all day, every day. I am a food addict - we eat whether happy or sad, sunshine or rain; obesity is the physical manifestation of my disease. I ate constantly, and when I was not eating I was dreaming about food - what I was going to eat, how and where I would eat and how I would hide that I had eaten.

It was a full-time job.

When I am in the food my life is completely unmanageable and definitely not my own. I am fortunate enough that I can physically lose weight on just about any program, but I was so miserable on low-fat that I figure'd I rather be miserable bingeing - at least it was more fun in the moment. Moderation does not work for me.

Also, I am seasonally active, but really no amount of amatuer exercise was going to burn off the calories I was consuming daily.