I am so sorry for your loss. Grandparents are truly wonderous people and you are so fortunate to have known your grandpa into your adult years. I'm sure you have lots of great memories.

There are always going to be events in our lives that make it difficult to follow any kind of a plan. You have shown a great deal of strength by posting here and getting back on plan. You have also proven that you do have what it takes to lose the weight. Just look at how far you have come! A day of eating off plan won't hurt you for the long term if you jump right back on.

Good luck with your test. You are probably more ready than you know, and I suspect the depression about going off plan is making you feel like everything is wrong. Keep your chin up!