Oh el-- keep your spirits up hun. Every now and then i visit your journal, hope everything is ok. I have a friend who is suffering from an ED right now-- i shared that quote (your siggie) with her, it's truly uplifting! I know what u mean about the pleasure of being small and looking better at a slightly higher weight (so true, sad to say)
Why can't u have children right now? Will u ever?--i hope so, so much, for your sake.
Are you trying anything for your hair, any products? some of them do work.

125 is good for your height! And you need body fat to bear children, so don't worry too much. You're beautiful on the inside! Stop by my journal, i hope to hear from you!