Hang in there Lost woman...I struggle too...we all do. Geesh if you look at my stats, I am higher in my weight now than when I started. But I am determined in the long run to turn myself around. The weight undermines myself esteem too at times, But I quit drinking years ago and already know the demons that can undermine me...they crop up in the weight loss area too. But I can do it and you can too kiddo