oh, i know a certain size won't make me happy. i gues what i mean was when i was a six the first time around i was extremely depressed and gained at least 60 pounds from a thyroid condition. i don't even REMEMBER what it was like to be smaller--all i know is having been 200lbs in the last couple of years since i came out of the fog!! it's just going to be strange having my old body back but not the burdons that came along with when i was younger...if that makes sense...thanks guys so much for all of the help and personal stories--i have goten back on track today and i'm getting ready to go do my first weight workout!! so here goes...i'll keep u posted