I know this isnt the greatest but I am trying to keep my calories between 1200 and 1500.

I have put my metabolism through so much torture with my years of starvation and binges and god knows what else that now I am scared that my metabolism has slowed so much that eating so many calories will make me gain weight. Especially since I dont do much exercise aside from walking.

If I have 1700 calories in my mind I freak out I cannot see myself eating 1900 calories on a regular basis. I am honestly full on 1200-1500 calories a day.