as I have observed many times here. . .I am a blessed to be a pessimist (life is always full of happy suprises when you think it's going to totally suck) and in my life as a pessimist I have learned a few valuable things. . .we can strive for the ideal world. . .BUT we have to live in the real world. And that one is judged on appearance first. . .but I am also a child (not really a kid anymore) of an ex model (local stuff. . .just you get the persona) and I got to see first hand someone who thinks that all she has to offer the world is her looks. . .this is a tough thing to believe as my mom get to be 60+. . .she's a hurtin' unit. I always look at it like. . .I have the option to be devestatingly gorgeous. . .I just did not exercise my option. .. til now. . .hehehe redawn