Coffee, how do you expect to reach your goal if you are so pessimistic?? Ya gotta believe you can do it, and you will. For 3 months, I have gone off the right track. I stopped working out and stopped eating healthy. I can't say I am 100% on track now, but I know I need to be to make myself feel better. You weight less than me, so, personally I don't think you need to lose 20lbs. But, it all depends on your body type. Maybe you are at the size you were built for. I think 140 is the size I should be at, its were I've been that I have felt the healthiest. I am 5'7 and now 163, which isn't bad for my height, but definetly not where I should be.