Thank you for the post, Maylisa. You have been through a lot and will be stronger for it. Losing weight is hard and keeping it off can be hard, too. I don't say that to discourage anyone. It is worth the effort - but it is work! One poster mentioned getting lazy. That is true of me, too. It is so easy to pick up that junk. Well, some of us simply don't have that latitute. We have to stay on course 99.99% of the time. This time of year can be tough, too. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's: here they come! Let's be strong, remember what makes us feel good and GO FOR IT!