Hi AJ, I often feel as you do. I will be feeling really good about my weight loss accomplishment thus far, and then I stand in front of the mirror and wonder how the h*ll did I let myself get like this in the first place?? It depresses me to see pics of me when I was 140. I was cleaning out the garage this past weekend and found clothes from when I was 140 lbs. They are going into the garage sale. That weight is too far away for me to visualize right now. My boyfriend says I let my weight determine my self worth. If I'm thinner, I'll be more worthy. I know he is partly right. I'm taking it one day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time, and I know I will start to feel better about myself one of these days. Risha, I love your analogy. I will keep that in mind as well.