I can't stop! If this is what a drug addiction feels like now I completely understand! I dont know what sets me off but something did! I know that I am going to cheat when I get home! I have been crying for an hour! It is like some evil spirit controlling me! I can't stop it! What did I ever do to deserve this? I want to say that I am stronger than it is but I just dont know anymore! I am doing a fat fast today and I am extremely hungry! I already drank 6 liters of water and it is only 3pm.

I had a piece of rum cake last night that my friend brought back from the Bahamas! I could not control myself! I dont know what made me eat it! It has been in the freezer for a month! I try to figure out what sets me off but I cant figure it out. I dont use artificial sweetners, I only drink water, no coffee or soda!

I know that I will find some excuse to majorly binge tonite! I need help! I cant control this! I would probably be gorging myself right now if I could stop crying like a baby! Then I would be eating and crying because I cant stop!


Sorry, I just needed to vent!