Well I saw my pdoc today, I was crying from the minute I got in there and he was great. He didn't make me feel bad he listened to me and gave me some good advice as well as uping my meds. We talked about my home life and the sh*tty situation I'm in as I came home I realised I can't live like this so when I got home I told my husband I wanted him to leave. Neither of us are happy together and he agreed, we just sat and talked it all through very amicably. So he will be leaving and going back to his home town he just has to sort with his dad when he can hire a van and come and pick his things up. I know this isnt going to be easy I'm gonna have to cope with the kids alone and wont have a lot of money but not changing this situation I'm in would be worse for me.