I am so sad to hear that you feel so huge still.... I am sure you remember how you felt at the beginiing of all of this... for me saying I have 140 pounds to lose is unbelievable adn SCARY as heck! to most ppl 50 would sound like a lot but it all depends on where you are coming from! I pray that I dont feel huge once I someday break that 200 mark....that will also be a HUGE HUGE accomplishment here..it's been well over 10 years since I've been there... CONGRATS! be proud of yourself!