I think it was a cruel joke when I was born. From day one, I have always been an outcast and loner. I grew up in a family of 5 and I was the odd man out. When I was young, I hoped that my life would change but it hasn't
I still have no friends and sometimes I don't even think my husband cares. I feel lonely all the time and most of the time I am alone. I don't think I'm that horrible but maybe I am. I repel people like oil repels water. I'm 33 and by now I thought that I would be used to being alone but it doesn't get any easier.
I often wonder why no one likes me but who would. I'm black, ugly, fat and boring. I wish I was never born.