Hon, if you want to be hard on yourself, then be hard on your thinking patterns. That's the only problem you have right now. You already work out *excessively*. No amount of working out and dieting will accomplish what Photoshop does to pictures of models. That's the sad truth. You may have been thinner before, but you were a year younger. Age takes its toll. You're in serious danger of developing an eating disorder, if you don't have one already. Please take a deep breath, take a big step back, and take a look at what's going on in your life. Consider getting help if this is really affecting you.

Take care of yourself.