I read your post with great interest and respect. It is very hard to pull yourself out of the kind of physical and mental pit you describe. There is often a point where we say 'ENOUGH!' but even so the first step of the long journey is hard. Once things start to improve, it does get easier, in my experience.

I wonder what gave you the initial strengh and clarity.

You deserve every success.

Your post also reminded me that exercise is not optional, neither for weight loss nor health. Thanks.

Best Wishes