Wow. This is heavy stuff. But just being able to share it is a step in the healing process and it sounds like you've taken several other steps. Just keep at it, take it one day at a time. The mcDonald's moments will come, don't beat yourself up, just keep going.

Healing takes time, but it sounds like youve come a long way and if you keep at it, it will happen.

My prayers are with you.