I just read your post and it moved me so much because I also experienced immense shame over my body, for so many reasons. And for a long while I did not know how to get back...I wanted to get back to life, freedom, health, anything better than where I was. When you get so far away from yourself, finding the path back is just so daunting it's unspeakable.

But here we are. Doing it. I stopped losing in my 5th week, freaked out a little, but then settled in for the long journey back to life. It's been lose a little, stay the same a little, but it's working.

Don't let the scale trip you out, just trust that as long as you're keeping to this WOL, you'll get where you want to go. You will. Just trust it. It's hard, I know, but we can all do it. You'll get there!