You're using the alchohol to drown some sorrow I think. I know it may be hard, but for your baby's sake try and not let the scotch take so much control that you are angry at everyone at all times. Rejoice in your new baby and you'll see that the caffeine and scotch cravings will diminish and soon you will feel like the pre-baby you! If you really, truly want to stop the habit, talk to someone, maybe a friend and tell them to help you cope. Sometimes we need someone to pick us up when we fall. Think of it this way, things could be so much worse than you think they really are. Look at the world and all the misery then, look at your beautiful baby and be glad that you have been given such a gift. Try and try and don't give up, do this for you, and the baby. You will feel better soon.

Smile, you have friends here!

Terry